Battered Boyfriend

by Creature from Dell Pond

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Gordon Pond has found his voice.

Battered Boyfriend is his first release as a solo composer and vocalist, but it finds him still carrying the moniker of his former group project, Creature from Dell Pond. This EP marks his introduction as a full-time lyricist but links him irrevocably to his past, highlighting all the ways in which time creates disjointed paths to and from the present.

And while this release is rooted in Pond's past, it takes bold steps in a new direction. Where former Creature from Dell Pond releases played irreverently with metaphor in dissonant sound, Battered Boyfriend is steeped in pith, painting stark, heavy silhouettes of the dissolution of friendships and abusive relationships. Both the lyrics and sound move strikingly beyond the content and form of previous Creature from Dell Pond output, providing new moments that are simultaneously more tender and harsh.

The opening track provides a yearning funeral dirge that condemns and grieves broken natures. The lyrics consider the childhood and childish excuses we give for our actions. They go as far as to call people out by name for their accusations, quoting lines of tragic, not possibly imaginary conversations.

"Regis" moves much more quickly and cuts us a break for our failures, acknowledging how we do our best, even as we may utterly fail ourselves and our friends. The hook senses that broken relationships begin with brokenness closer to home, as Pond drones over and over "I don't know how to love myself" and comes to see how his present is a continuation of his father's path, a shattered link across splintered time.

The closing duo of songs tackle the album title head on, considering the origins, instances, and effects of abuse and domestic violence. How can we talk about the violence victims experience? The anger? The shame? Especially when their narratives don't fit the norms understood by our communities, leaving us no language to articulate these traumas. Here, Pond grapples for words and finds, not answers, but solace in the essential, ending the album abruptly with an age-old adage: "The truth will set me free."

Battered Boyfriend is embedded in a past both distant and close-by. Citing childhood traumas and current Chicago locations that are seemingly the background of these events, these four tracks are steeped in history and consider how entangled we all are in our own narratives. The themes developed here embrace the complexity of interpersonal experiences and are just the beginning of Pond's untangling them and finding a voice with which to speak.

credits

released November 4, 2016

music & lyrics written, produced & arranged by gordon pond

gordon pond - bass, guitars, organs, vocals, feedback
marc drake - drums (except for track 3)
rob fletcher - auxiliary percussion, drums on track 3
tj kallaher - outro lead guitar on track 1, verse lead guitar on track 2

engineered & mixed by rob majchrowski at two states
mastered by carl saff

foreword by amelia hruby
artwork by paola martinez

special thanks to: rob, amelia, eli, jakob, alex mann, nick alvarez, david ladon, serena & her crew, ian sutherland, athena sarpy, fletch, marc, tj, david curtin, eric, the club soda crew, skyler, mattie, paola, ruby, luke, ken, jim, giancarlo, blythe, chris, matt, nolan, noah, ian, rahim, bento, lauren & the earphoria gang, ryan, kendra & mom, jack & tracy, and everyone else who i may have forgotten

if you've experienced domestic abuse, 'violent partners' by linda mills is an excellent resource

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Track Name: N Francisco Ave, Chicago, IL
all my friends have disproportionate reactions
to the feelings and the actions of those they love
each of them is an animal of habit
consumed by things that happened when they were young

all my friends are repressed beyond redemption
they struggle with their perception of what is real
each of them is too complacent to point a finger
so i'll aim mine at the mirror and take the fall

"i'm calling to tell you that gordon's a monster
he's stringing you both along"
well, ian can't help that he's overdramatic
but that doesn't mean he's wrong

as for blythe, she knows exactly how to use me
but i never set a boundary, so i'm to blame
i tried my best to remain a neutral party
but i didn't, and i'm sorry, for what it's worth

"i'm calling to tell you that gordon's a monster
he's gonna sleep with your wife"
well, ian can't help that he's so damn vindictive
though he did end up being right

all my friends have disproportionate reactions
to my self-serving actions, and that's a shame
Track Name: Regis Rd, Marshfield, MA
research seems to suggest
you've been doing your best with the cards you've been dealt
your god created me
predetermined to be lacking any remorse

i don't know how to love myself
somewhere between manic and depressive

nolan says as he laughs
"you'll end up like your dad, hanging dead from a pole"
i've accepted that fate
but i'm willing to make myself into a martyr

i don't know how to love myself
somewhere between manic and depressive
Track Name: N Campbell Ave, Chicago, IL (I)
we are the children of abuse
of violence, negligence and rape
craving some form of intimacy
drawn together subconsciously

fingers pressed against my neck
your mouth begins to foam
searching for what feels familiar
pain is what i know

i could not imagine
just how petty you can be
but you said your brother's seen
exactly what i've seen

we are the children of abuse
of incest, injury & shame
but that is still not an excuse
for your behavior, amy
Track Name: N Campbell Ave, Chicago, IL (II)
when you choke me
at least then you feel close
when you abuse me
at least then i feel home

i don't care what you hear
i don't care what you see
i don't care what you know
the truth has set me free

ashamed of being a battered boyfriend